We are so close to this long-awaited for day of having our third child join our family. As we are in our final preparations, we have a few things we would like to share.
There are three years of adoption training and reading adoption books and talking to other adoptive families in the words that are about to be written. Please know all of these words are coming from a place of love for Tobiah and a desire to help others love him well.
First, we are Tobiah’s real family. Please be careful when referring to us in any other way. Tobiah actually has three families: his birth family, his foster family, and us – his forever family. Each are real and important and part of his story. One is not more “real” than another.
Second, Tobiah is not lucky. Tobiah is not able to be with his birth family. This is not his choice or his desire. If he were lucky, he would be with his birth family. We feel like the lucky ones that we get a chance to raise this precious boy and honor his birth parents in doing so.
Thirdly, Tobiah is our child. He is neither more nor less our child than Anson and Makenna. He is equally our child – entrusted to us by God to raise, provide for, care for, and love.
Lastly, Tobiah’s birth parents’ decision to put him up for adoption is their decision and his story. Please respect that and do not ask him, or us or our other kids, questions about this. We honor his story in protecting it.
As we transition Tobiah into our home we are aware of the separation that he will be going through. He will endure separation from his foster family to whom he is deeply attached. This rupture is considered a trauma by most child development experts. He will likely experience deep grief once he realizes they are not coming back. That grief can come in the form of tantrums, biting, yelling, sleeping, screaming, and so on. We have no idea how he will display his grief. During this tender time, we are practicing the recommended month(s) of “cocooning” to build attachment. This means no visitors at home so he learns that we are ones who meet all of his physical and emotional needs. You may see us out and about at times. While we welcome friendly interaction with Tobiah then, please leave any physical comforting or feeding to us. High fives, smiles, and silly faces are great! Thanks for your understanding.
On that note, please be praying for our transition as a family. While adoption is such a beautiful picture of redemption and love and we cannot wait to have Tobiah in our arms, it also represents loss for him. In the blink of a eye, Tobiah will lose everything he has ever known having no idea what is ahead. We will not be who he wants. We will take him from a place of love and comfort and familiarity to a place of different sights and smells and foods and well honestly everything. Tobiah is about to begin his bravest adventure yet and we are asking for your prayers every moment you think of it for him.
A fellow adoptive momma wrote this, “We were the third place she had been sent. She was confused and lost and scared. She didn’t understand why, yet again, she was being introduced to more new strangers to call family.
My heart broke for her sweet soul those first few days. I can’t explain the terror she had in her eyes when the orphanage handed her over to us. But I imagine, it’s a terror I would never want to feel for myself.
I wanted so badly for her to know that she would never be sent anywhere else again. That we would be her forever place. Her mommy and daddy for life. To love her like she’s never been loved before. But nothing I said or did took away her terror. She cried. She screamed. She refused to eat. It was painful.
Do you want to know the only thing that worked? Some would guess “time”. And yes time, but not JUST time. Days and days of showing her she could trust us. That’s different than just “time”.”
In a few short days we will start the hard, but oh-so-worth-it work, of gaining Tobiah’s trust. This will look different than how we parented Anson and Makenna and probably how you parented your toddlers. Know we have done the research and are doing what is very best for him, even if it doesn’t make sense to you at times.
Prayers:
- For Tobiah’s grief
- For Tobiah’s sleep
- For all of our sleep
- For Tobiah’s attachment to us
- For our attachment to Tobiah
- For Tobiah’s foster family that is saying goodbye to a child they have loved for 19 months
- For our marriage
- For Anson and Makenna
- For the sibling attachment
- For patience
- For perseverance
- For us to know how to love him through his grief
- For times of laughter
- For times of deep connection
- For time/energy/capacity to meet each child’s need
- For adjusting from jet lag quickly
In addition to all of this above – which is a lot I realize, please be flexible with us. All the training and discussion and reading of books can only roughly prepare us for the unique journey that is ours. We will know more once he is home what we need. Please partner with us as we make this transition. Meals are always welcome. Gift cards for restaurants so we can pick up a meal to go. Driving the big kids places. Taking the big kids for some fun outside of our home. Picking up a load of towels. A hug. A text to say you are praying. A walk. Praying for us. People connect with Seth during this transition too (girls are so much better at this, but he is going to need a support system as well). And a million more things. If you think it, do it!
We are about to put the words – IT TAKES A VILLAGE – to the test! Community – let’s do this!